I want you to feel me

I want you to feel me.
These extreme amounts
of internal agony
which drip, and then bust
deep within my insides
ravaging them
destroying them-
I must find it.
But how can I remove it,
in a way that would make sense-
in a way that would make sane
my whole person?
It seems impossible,
I must dispel it all.
I must dig it all out
I must extract the rotten flesh,
the rotten core.
If only it didn't cling,
for I am left with parts
and the parts keep hurting
can you rid me of this filth?
Oh, please, rid me of these maggots
which nest
in my heavy-laden heart,
for my brain is stuffed
with too many things.