The only magic I still believe in is love

Love is an illusion
A state of mind
A thought you have in the shower
As the water is dripping down
Your nose and your fingertips
and you analyze how your people
skills could improve
Or how gray the buildings appear
Against the sky today
Or how that slice on your finger
Hurts against the water
Running down you
But it is refreshing to feel the pain
So you linger in it, you take it in
Because it reminds you
How love didnt resonate in his head
Yet crushed your entire skeleton
With the emotional romance
You conjured within your brain
And you begin to wonder
That if love works that way
Maybe you are in love with the fedex guy
Who smiles real nice and pitches his voice real high whenever you see him
Carrying heavy packages
Maybe he is planning your wedding
Maybe the engagement ring is in that package
If love is, so meaningless to you
But so meaningful to me
Than we loved each other more than anyone ever loved
And now we hate each other
More than anyone ever hated
becsuse love isnr a block
Its a thin piece of silk
Waving in the wind,
Forever changing
Love is not a solid thing
That you can touch
And feel grounded in
And rest all you futures and fears upon
Love doesnt exist
Not the kind of love that existed in my head
And i think that
Is more despairing
Than that little cut
On my hand